It has no shape,
It doesn't move backwards
It merely is
In a place my poems have not yet reached.
But that's okay.
I will wait
if the world could speak,
maybe she can,
she would sing your name
one more time,
I don't want to lose you
so hold me tight.
Grab me by my shoulders
I've fallen in love.
Close my eyes,
Don't let me see tomorrow.
Hold me so I can embrace you.
You feel so warm
your breasts against my chest.
deeper into my eyes.
Do you see it?
Do you feel it?
Take my breath away because
I don't want to ever lose this moment.
Like a ghoul, a ghost,
You drag across the dancefloor
Trying to disappear,
drawn towards the voids of disco light.
The smell of brimstone and cigarette smoke still lingers.
I can see that you're trying,
that you're stretching, elasticated, tired
But you're already dead.
You can't hide the tears you hold in your chest.
Not from me.
You bow your head and sway,
I'd come closer but I'm too scared.
You haunt me like you haunt yourself
Never out of love but never out of hate.
Don't tell me you're okay because I'd know if you were.
I'm here with you
I will captain this ship
I will hold my feet planted onto the worn timber beneath.
The first bullet to hit this ship
will be the first bullet to hit me.
I will watch the horizon, guiding us both to the sun.
I will bear, I will see the dawn before you see the dusk.
Your captain, I am.
My captain, I shall be. A visionary. A leader.
Self sacrifice and compassion shall be the sword I guard you with.
I will see where we're headed and when I sleep,
I will envision the destination.
Sleep for you are so sweet.
This battle was not made for you, it never was.
You glow in the nightlight, radiating like candleflame
You keep my vision oh so clear with warmth and with light
The Gods, they watch us.
They wait for you.
They bring stormy seas but
I can't afford to lose you, so you'll just have to lose me.
I am the captain of this ship but I am only a humble servant,
Your mum gave you the pain of existence.
Art gave you the gift of life.
So who really birthed you
and who really created you?
Do you ever feel like you're climbing a mountain?
A rocky one,
Hard to grasp.
I know I do.
I always feel like I'm trying to get to where I'm supposed to be
Instead of being where I'm supposed to be.
The fight never ends.
But yet, how much longer can I go?
How much longer will it take?
I can't keep climbing forever.
I CAN'T STOP CRYING INSIDE!
We all have pain inside buried.
We carry it without even knowing
Then we hear the right song
and we feel the pain
so we sing.
“Flawed and Flagrant, I burn into space dust” – Planet Earth
Out of all the stars,
I loved her the most.
She felt like I didn't,
But she knew that I did.
Maybe that's why she's like this.
She's always been dramatic.
She would constantly remind me of
the ring I gave to Saturn -
But not her.
She was the one who literally thought
the sun revolved around her.
She'd ask me if she looks flat
KNOWING THAT SHE'S A FUCKING SPHERE.
The amount of times I could've ended this...
But who would I have ended up with?
I can't even believe I fucked that one up so bad.
I thought this one wouldn't be the same -
It seemed different.
But the cancer is too strong.
I've made nebulas, protostars, quasars - name it.
But I can't make this one go away.
I shed a tear because it's sad to think:
The only life in the universe
is trying to kill itself.
I guess it was never meant to last.
You'd be surprised,
at what you might find
if you just
listened to your eyes.