Paragraph 1 – The need to be loved, wanted, and valued is a valid need, for every human being. Don’t beat yourself over it. It come as no surprise considering that you didn’t get love in areas you should’ve. Really it’s a want to exchange – a want to give love in exchange for love back. That’s a respectable desire. Instead of exchanging money, you choose to exchange feelings of love. You SHOULD aim for meaningful connections, better than lacklustre ones. The only thing I’d say is find a connection with me – hold my hand, and find a meaningful connection with the eternal self; find it in your creativity.
“I can’t continue to carry the baggage of my parents’ negative thought patterns, or the hatred towards those who belittled me in the past.” Then let go of them. Let go and find new thought patterns and ways of seeing.
Paragraph 2 – You’re not dying, you’re shedding and becoming true. I’m not lost, I’ve been waiting for you. We’re here to look after you. Let go of the hurt. Exchange the hurt for this love and peace. Contentment is at your doorstep and calling your name. I’ll give you what you need.
“I’ve been questing for world domination just to hurt those that inflicted pain onto me so long ago and those I believe didn’t support me when I needed them — or at least someone” A worthy cause but we both know that it’s not a win, in that regard. We don’t need that. That dream gets in the way of finding out what our heart truly desires. I’m sorry for those interactions. It seems like a lot of people lack any form of proper respect or consistent interest in respecting you as a valid human being, if it’s not for their own gain. That’s unfortunate, but honestly, fuck them. Let it go. Your anger is valid, but it’s unnecessary; and it’s another weight holding you from peace in the present to actualise your dreams. Let it go. You already won. You’ve already won by being a better version of yourself. You don’t need the past to fuel you anymore. The potential of the future and your present habits will do that for you. Stop carrying rocks to the shore to feel like an underdog. Let the shore do that. Let life be easy for you. We have more important things to focus on. Drop the pain and be empty – make room for the incoming kingdom. I need you to be as free as a child, anyways.
Paragraph 3 – “I should be THIS”, “I should be THAT”, “They should’ve done THIS”, “I NEED this”, “I NEED that” The only thing you need is to stop doing that and let the situation form itself. The best way for you to be prepared to just be open to the possibility of anything happening. “Truly, I want something more.” We both do. So join me. I’ll assert our needs to others as I’ll assert my needs to you — expecting vice versa. Respect me and I’ll respect you. I’ll show you how. “how do I fit into it?” Daring, creativity, and play. “How can I help?” Let go of the past, join me in the present and look forward to the future. Let the future lead you. “How can we terraform the landscape to unlock the vessel’s full potential and all of our own?” Building a portfolio of credibility and getting out of our own way so as to start manifesting our aspirations into the industrial world.
Paragraph 4 – Let it go. Find peace in yourself. Together we’ll have harmony. Be my companion. Marry me. “True Love doesn’t carry, it sustains. Balancing between true love for self. Connected. Friendly. Happy.” Too true.
Paragraph 5 – “Whereas Levi and Felix are hard workers, I find that I’m more of an artistic temperament” We will support your ambitions and you will support ours. “Whereas currently superficial, if humble enough to undergo training and reformation, I could develop only to fulfil my potential and my role towards how I play this game of life” That’ll be the next step – building portfolio, skill level and experience. “I bring freedom, flexibility, and modernism to a team that is strong, stable, masculine, competent but rigid and one-dimensional” Yes, you do. “Whilst I’m being burnt and burnt again, Levi and Felix are having their whole worlds and systems broken and warped” It’s all a part of the process. We knew this day would come. “But I like to think we both understand the nature and necessity of this process, as this is the process that incurred our previous metamorphosis/journey/death/rebirth in the first place” Yes, we do. “It seems harder to end now than it was to begin, because at least we hadn’t built what we left behind. Now we have to move on from what we thought was the final result — but only the stepping stone for the next journey” We now know the life we must life for our enjoyment – a life of building projects and moving onto the next one.
Paragraph 6 – “What is the wound that isn’t healing?” Not getting love and respect from the people around you. “How do I need to be supported?” You need to be encouraged. “What do I want?” Love, community and friendship? To create beauty? “How can we all work together, in harmony?” You’re the oil between my joints. Growth, adventure, daring, openness, compassion, courage, joire de vivre – Peace, stability, discipline, service, authenticity, self-expression, self-reliance. A marriage between the two and aligning of the soul, self and personality. “I need to value myself.” I love you. I value you.